I miss Nelli so much…it’s been exacty 18 days since I’ve seen Nelli. It seems like such a small number but it felt like an eternity. I remember when Nelli would be away on the weekends doing his marathons and that was painful but his absence now feels unbearable. ok, I know I’m sounding dramatic, I’m doing fine lol. It still sucks. December was so quiet without him and the slow pace of work didn’t help either. It’s funny because everytime he was away on the weekends I would go back to my apartment but I can’t do that anymore and I just sleep at Nelli’s. Nelli teases me because I call my apartment a storage unit but it’s true…it doesn’t feel like home anymore. I didn’t realize that being with Nelli is such an integral part of my life…Luckily, we talk on the phone every day and we recently got google hangouts to work so video chatting makes it a lot easier. It’s cool to hear Nelli’s stories about his family, the numerous events he goes to, and the food. Currently, I’m back in San Antonio so the presence of my family really helps too. I had a few bouts of sadness/agitation but I’m just trying to stay positive and Nelli is doing a good job of calming my insecurties and doubts. I know that when he comes back our relationship will be so much stronger.
I had a very eventful day. The past weekend I went to Austin for my brothers graduation and had to leave Monday morning. I woke up at 430 am to catch my flight that was delayed an hour. I had to switch flights because I missed my connection and finally arrived to work at 1pm. Work was absolutely crazy with so much to catch up on that I didn’t leave work till 7pm. I was exhausted, my head hurt, and I was dreading coming home to an empty house because Nelli would already be in India to work on his visa issues. I came into the door and saw the above on the table. I loved the message in the card. I am so lucky to have Nelli in my life. He is so good to me. He is everything I want and more. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to make sure I’m not dreaming because I am truly living in a fairy tale. I love him so much ❤